Maybe….
my world begin to fade out
my vision turn to dark
my life became black
i’m still thinking about what i’m supposed to be…
thinking for my age, my future, and off course my life…
everything works "maybe" like it use to be…
but…
"maybe" it is not!
i don’t know if i’m wrong or not ?
look behind, look what i have done before ?
it is not like what i have expected…
my dreams crashed before the end of the road…
why ?
i have found someone now…
but i still thinking someone before, and someone after that…
i falls down into a valley that i don’t know it’s end…
"maybe" i must go on ?
or "maybe" i must quit ?
18-02-07 | 02.29
A
Whisper From The Heart
I want you to be with me tonight…
With my self who feels lonely
I want you to feel what I feel…
Until I can enjoy how beautiful
This life is…
A
Speech From The Heart
I have mistake to you
I don’t know what to do now ?
Remember all the past….
Untill I awake from my confiusness…
A
Shout From The Heart
Forgive me, if you want to…
Leave me, if you want to…
An
Answer From The Heart
All of that because of love …
Being different is not a problem ….
ndoe™
Heemm… (again)
Heemm… akhir nya bisa tidur normal juga 2 hari ini…..
ya mungkin cuman buat 2 hari ini aja, besok² ga tau…. wakkwkawkwa 
Em… nobody’s perfect lah, kita masih punya banyak kekurangan n kelebihan…
namanya juga manusia … 
Nothing is come as easy as we think, smua itu butuh pengorbanan….
Contoh: "Cinta"….. Kita ga bakalan dapet cinta itu kalau hanya berdoa aja sih… kita harus usaha buat ngedapetinitu …. dan juga pengorbanan itu pasti ada klo buat cinta…
Huhuhu…. when will my time comes…. Too Much thinking it’s making me nuts*
Maybe in near time, i hope so… Nothing is impossible if God help us…
So.. don’t try to forget it ….
Help me God, with your guidance…
I Hope i can face her, face the problem and face the consequence for the future…
But i’m still not sure of it..???
Is still there is a way for me..?? I hope there is…
Please accept me … (i just try optimism, whether if i succed or not… but i’m happy for it) [Good Luck for myself]
Hari² yang tambah parah sih kayaknya ???
Hahaha… tiap hari tambah parah ….
satu hal yang bikin itu … insomnia ku jd kronis…
stress ga sih, giliran besok nya kerja pagi, malemnya ga bisa tidur..
duhh… bingung nih…. lama² jadi Vampire beneran nih… wakwakkwawa :))
Untung aja klo pas kerja pagi… ada seseorang yg nemenin ak…
ya kita ngobrol macem² lah, dari masalah kerjaan sampe kehidupan….
walaupun ak ga pernah tau siapa dia, orangnya kayak gimana, wajahnya… ehuehuehe
But, makasih banyak yah… km dah byk banget bantu ak beberapa hari ini …
Mungkin kita bisa ketemu kapan² … Thank’s for being such a nice person
Heem… tahun 2007 ini mo ngapain aja yah….?
mo benerin smuanya dulu deh, kehidupan dah berantakan gini …
bisa² "madesu" nih alias "masa depan suram" heuheuhee
Kuliah dibenerin, kerja dibenerin… kalo perlu cari seseorang buat pendamping …(halah..;p) moga² aja tahun ini dapet udah lama ga berpikir untuk itu soal nya…
Hehehe… Wish Me Luck yah…! Smoga Tuhan juga membantu ak dan kita semuanya…
Amien….
Heemm….
Heemm, ternyata dah lama banget ak ga pernah ngisi blog lagi …
Aneh juga sih, liat blog tmn2… knp ak ga isi in lg aja blog ku sendiri … he he he
At Least, sebenernya banyak hal yang terjadi sama diriku… Kadang bagus n kadang² jelek…
Huuh…
Life sometimes is confusing me …
Sometimes good and sometimes bad …
Maybe God is giving a different way to us …
Heemm…
That just it…
Welcome again to my blog…
See Yaa …
Boring….!!! + Capek…!!!
Tiap hari ga ada yg berubah…
Gitu2 melulu…., sibukin kerja tiap hari..
kmaren abis ke bandung 2 hari lumayan lahh…
itung2 refreshing padahal dpt nya cuman capek (kakak sepupu aku nikahan)… berangkat hari jumat malem, nyampe bandung sabtu pagi… langsung tidur zzzz… bangun jam 2 siang siap2 acara nya akad nikah nya dah mulai.. slesai jam 7 malem… trus persiapan buat acara minggu..baru bisa tidur jam 2 malem… bangun jam 6 pagi… trus angkut2 barang ke gedung ampe jam 9, trus persiapan di gedung… smp jam 11 br acara mulai… BT juga lah… dipajang jadi penerima tamu, pake beskap sunda kompliitttt… !!! sampe2 ketiduran di meja tamu… hjauehauehaue slesai acara jam 2 sore… masih bantuin beres2 di rumah… capek banget dah pokok nya baru bisa istirahat jam 5 sore n jam 7 langsung brangkat lagi pulang ke semarang… alhasil jadi deh… semaleman perjalanan pulang tidur di bis dari bandung ampe semarang… sampe2 kondektur nya bangunin gw pas udah ampe semarang.
huaamm,,,,,!!!!
Mana udah mulai masuk kul, masih bolos juga..
hauehuaheue
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kadang hati merasa tidak tenang tanpa seseorang..
tapi seseorang itu sapa yah ??? Belum pernah nemuin yang pas, ada sih beberapa pilihan, tapi kayaknya dia ga berminat sama aku…? Wajah makin lama makin ancur aja deh,udah ga pernah bersihin diri, ga punya pacar… makin ga laku aja deh…. hahahahahaha
Tapi masa bodo deh… berdoa sama berusaha itu perlu… sapa tau ntar bisa dapet… heuheue (Aminn…) Moga2 aja masih ada jalan…. hihihih….
NB:Buat adekku yg ada di jakarta, thanks buat semuanya yahh!! Tanpa kamu mungkin semua ini ga bakalan terjadi… (Thanks to God too…!!!)
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To my “she’s the one”
i’m sorry, i can’t stand this feeling anymore
forgive me… i don’t know if this wrong or not ?
i just want you to know about my feelings
please help me…
What the hell is going on ???
if you don’t agree with me or there is somethings wrong anout us
we can fix it, we can talk honestly among us
If we can’t together now
Maybe there is another day for us ?
If God give us the chance ?
If you are my soulmate ?
Or am i your soulmate ?
May the reality talk to us !!!
I Just Want You To Know What I Feel !!!
Is it WRONG ???
My Life These Days
When the sun goes down
Suddenly, the rain is falling
It make me feel so bad and more bad these days
More worst day by day
What is it ?
Who is it ?
I don’t know ?
One by one come and go from my life
Bring happynes and sadness to me
Maybe it is just a simple circle of my life
But, i didn’t know for sure ?
When all of this is gonna end ?
Or when all of this start again ?
It just so unpredictable
My life is changing these days,
Somethings getting better and
Somethings getting worst.
In the last few weeks i’ve been thinking to change all off the bad to be good…
But, sometimes few things must end in a bad way,
I just can think positively now, i don’t know what is all about ?
Bad things and good things come to me together and suddenly can make my life became so messed up.
Sometimes i can handle it and sometimes i couldn’t. I think these things is make me so crazy.
I need help, a few of my best friends told me to be tough to face all of this.
I wrilly thanks wo them.
But i think i must close myself to God to help me ends this problem.
Now, i realize the meaning of true friends…
To my true Friends, without your support, i can’t face all of this.. please support me untill i can finish this…
I wrilly need you !!!
Everyday i’m still thinking to fix all of this… i hope i can fix it….
Just Another Side of ME !!!
Just Wondering…….???
For Someone Out there
Just wondering where you are ……. ???
makes me fall down ……. ???
Just Dreaming ……… ???
Maybe someday, i can forget you …..
In the funerals of my love for you …
I wrote it in pains …
I love you in different ways …
it makes me sick … NOW … !!!
I hope you feel it …
"I’m dying for your love ??"
"I’m killing myself for your love and again all is lost"
I just can’t stand it ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
{ After all, forget it !!! It just not make me feel better.
For someone out there, i couldn’t forget you at all… see u next, maybe ??? In another life, maybe ???}
Just Another Ordinary Day
Is just another day which is same with yesterdays…
but it’s ok i’ll go for it…
is just a matter of time who watching us…
untill the day that i found what i looking for…
are that day want to come???
Just look for the future…
Don’t ever give up…
